PLL's Troian Bellisario Once Lived Off 300 Calories A Day! Read About The Disorder That 'Almost Killed' Her!
Troian Bellisario is getting real about her battle with her mental health.
In Tuesday’s Lenny Letter, the Pretty Little Liars star opened up about fighting with the voice in her head to believe that she is “enough” — a struggle that pushed her to an eating disorder years ago.
The 31-year-old actress penned:
“There is a part of my brain that defies logic. Once, it completely convinced me I should live off 300 calories a day, and at some point, it told me even that was too much … That part of my brain is my disease, and there was a time when it had absolute authority over me. It almost killed me, and you can see that even though I have lived in recovery for ten years now, it still finds loads of fun, insidious ways to thwart me to this day.”
Fortunately, the Sister Cities starlet has a strong support system that has helped her “survive” her disease:
“It was a difficult journey finding my way back to health. Through hard introspection, intense medical and mental care, a supportive family, friends, and a patient and loving partner, I survived, which is rare.”
Another form of therapy for Troian was writing, producing, and starring in the new movie Feed (out today!), about a teen who is driven to an eating disorder after the death of her twin brother.
The filmmaker said of the inspiring project:
“The voice of my disease is with me every day. I am practiced at ignoring it, for the most part, but it’s still there, finding new ways to undermine me. That’s partially why I wrote Feed. I wanted to channel that voice into a story and out of myself. I wanted to create a character who also wondered how she could be enough.“
“Writing, producing, and acting in it helped me to get one more degree of separation from my disease in what I know will be a lifetime of work in recovery … It is my greatest hope that someone watching it, struggling with the same challenges I do, might think, ‘What if I were enough too?’ So with all the courage I can muster, I give it to you, I give it to that one person, in hopes that it could make them feel enough.”
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